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I’ve been tak­ing part in a weekly online Bible-study where we are on a quest to say “Yes!” to God…whatever that may be. To me, it means, “Yes, God. I relin­quish con­trol to you.”

And that’s hard!

When I was preg­nant with my first child I remem­ber ask­ing any mother I could get my hands on and inter­ro­gat­ing them on what to expect.  (Peo­ple were giv­ing me pow­der AND lotion and telling me it goes on the same place…That makes oat­meal, peo­ple! They would just laugh at me and walk off.  It took trial and error to under­stand that one.) I was freaked out and wanted to be com­pletely pre­pared.  The only thing that did was kick start my Mommy-OCD.

For me, I have dis­cov­ered that M-OCD is the only way I can keep sane.

I am reg­i­mented in the boys’ sched­ule, meals, home­work and bed­times. Don’t get me wrong. I strongly believe in the kids being kids so free time is fun and crazy. (Hello! I’m totally imma­ture!) But in the process of becom­ing more effi­cient over the years, it’s become a norm to con­trol every­thing. Even my rela­tion­ship with God.

How bor­ing.

I believe Jesus would really like to take a hold of my heart, but I’m get­ting in the way.  I am seri­ously miss­ing out.  I’ve been there, so I know what I’m miss­ing. I’m not black and white by nature so not sure why I’m hav­ing such an issue with this.

But this study has been inter­est­ing.  It throws words around like “rad­i­cal obe­di­ence”. Yikes!

I wasn’t sure what to expect from doing it with a group of ladies I don’t know, but I’ve actu­ally been able to glean (yes, I used the word ‘glean’. I feel 80.) thoughts and action from these ladies.

We’re not too far into the book (and you don’t even have to have the book to do it…it’s all cov­ered in the blog), so if you want to stick your heart out and see if it gets pricked.  C’mon and check it out.